Meditation for Anxiety: When It Doesn’t Work & What to Do

Meditation for Anxiety: When It Doesn’t Work & What to Do

Have you tried to use meditation for anxiety symptoms?

Many HSPs who are prone to anxiety turn to meditation to cope. It makes sense that people with sensitive nervous systems would gravitate toward a quiet, inward-oriented, and deeply personal practice.

We’ve also been hearing about endless benefits of meditation for years, one of which is that meditation can calm anxiety. There are indeed multifaceted benefits that can come from meditation practice, and anxiety relief may be one of those for some people.

Yet, lost in the hype that touts meditation as a cure-all is that it can have potential adverse side effects. Traditional teachers know this, but we don’t hear about it in a world in which traditions get commodified by the loudest voices and largest platforms.

A few years ago, researchers at Brown University published a study that looked at reported side effects by practitioners of a specific Buddhist meditation. These side effects included quite a few examples of nervous system hyperarousal or hypoarousal, such as anxiety, insomnia, emotional blunting, and dissociation.

Of course, this kind of study has limitations, but it also offers an important balance to a widespread narrative that overlooks the possible risks.

I’ll also say that as someone who has practiced various forms of meditation on and off for the last 23 years, I have experienced many benefits. And, I’ve also witnessed some of the rare, but real adverse side effects on loved ones and fellow practitioners.

I hope this serves as a reminder that if you ever experience increased anxiety or adverse side effects from your meditation, you’re not alone.

Today I want to shed some light on why meditation for anxiety may not always work for anxiety. I’ll also share tips for how you might approach meditation if you struggle with anxiety.

Why Meditation May Not Always Work for Anxiety

Meditation and mindfulness are considered “top-down” approaches, which means they engage the higher cognitive parts of the brain in the prefrontal cortex. This is the topmost, and evolutionary speaking, newest part of the brain that is home logic, language, thinking, and other executive functions.

Top-down approaches have value, but they are not always helpful in moments of hyperarousal. While there are complex interactions throughout the brain, anxiety is a response to stress that primarily takes place in the lower parts of the brain: the emotional center known as the limbic system, and the brain stem. When you’re in an anxious state, your emotional brain can take over while your cognitive brain goes offline.

This is why “bottom-up” approaches that work with these lower parts of the brain can be helpful for many people when dealing with anxiety. I’ll give examples of these approaches below.

If Meditation Isn’t Helping, Consider These Tips

First, if you’re struggling with debilitating anxiety or an anxiety disorder, please seek care from a licensed mental health clinician. Working one-on-one with a meditation teacher for guidance is also important, but meditation teachers are not trained mental health clinicians.

1) Meet your nervous system where it is. While you want to move from hyper-aroused to a calmer, regulated nervous system, meditative practice may not always be the starting point. Rather, you might save your meditation for after you’ve used other means to process anxiety since anxiety often needs a bottom-up approach to build a sense of safety in your nervous system. Examples of such approaches can include: exercise, dancing, yoga asana, expressive art, long exhales, chewing ice, jumping, shaking, nature walks, or other movements.

2) Meditate when you’re calm. Meditation starts out challenging for everyone. While consistent meditation can have benefits and potentially rewire your brain to be less reactive over time, it makes a difference to begin a practice from a calm or neutral state rather than from an anxious one. If you’re set on building a meditation practice, you might practice for 10 minutes per day when you already feel more regulated. By the way, this doesn’t have to be in the morning. You can integrate your practice into where it fits in your existing life.

3) Try a different form of meditation. Meditation practice takes time to build, so it’s a good idea to give your practice a chance for several months, unless it’s causing you distress. If you find it’s not helping, you might try another form of meditation. The study referenced above focused solely on Buddhist traditions and mindfulness practice. I’d be curious to know if Vedic practices such as mantra recitation or an Internal Family Systems approach to meditation would carry the same possible risks.

4) Explore alternatives to meditation. Meditation can challenge you, but it should not be a burden, stoke anxiety, or result in undue distress. There’s nothing wrong with you if you’re not experiencing anxiety relief or other benefits from meditation. There are other practices that can be grounding and help you release anxiety. They may even help you connect more to the world. Some are mentioned in #1, but this could also include practices such as journal writing or mindful gardening.

In Closing…

Keep in mind that it’s not necessary to stick with a meditation practice for years in hopes of reaching some eventual immeasurable state. Your practice should have functional benefits that support nervous system regulation and help you better integrate with all parts of yourself, loved ones, and the surrounding world.

A Question That Gets Neglected in Contemplative Practice

A Question That Gets Neglected in Contemplative Practice

Are you engaging in a contemplative practice? Maybe you have an existing practice or you’ve recently embarked on something new.

Whatever your practice may be, I have a question for you to consider on your journey.

It’s a question that tends to get overlooked in contemplative practice. I admit that I, too, have been deep on a path without really stopping to ask myself this.

Yet, it’s an important one to keep in mind.

This question is…

“Is this practice enhancing or degrading your ability to connect and function in the world?”

You may have begun your practice with an intended benefit in mind. Maybe a friend suggested it, or perhaps, our broader society keeps telling you it will be good for you.

There’s no shortage of people and publications touting the benefits of meditation or yoga. Yet, there’s little discussion around varying forms of these practices that may be helpful to some people, in some circumstances, and not so much in others. There’s virtually no mention of the potential adverse side effects.

I speak from pitfalls I have faced myself…

As a teen, I practiced Kriya Yoga, which entailed an hour of prāṇāyāma practices each morning.  I distinctly recall an instance when my dad unintentionally interrupted my practice. My peaceful state abruptly vanished, I shot a disdainful look at him, and we ended up in an argument. My practice didn’t exactly translate to being more compassionate, forgiving, or even flexible.

I began with Ashtanga Yoga in my late 20s. I thought I felt great after my practice, even though I would be tired, unfocused, and in physical pain a couple of hours later. It took me years to come to terms with the havoc it wreaked on my body and nervous system.

These experiences are just a couple among many that have shaped the teaching principles I follow today.

To be clear, it’s not my intention to denigrate these practices or traditions. They have their place depending on the individual, stage of life, aim, and context…things that get lost in modern yoga.

But they didn’t match up with my system and what I needed for functional living at those phases of my life.

Any practice requires time and dedication. You can give yourself time to explore.

Just keep in mind that your practice should serve you, and there’s nothing wrong with you if you come to find that it’s not.

Check in along the way to assess whether your practice is truly helping you live out your capacities and connect with the surrounding world.

4 Questions for Your Contemplative Practice

  1. What is my purpose for engaging in this practice?
  2. How do I feel during this practice and hours after?
  3. Is this practice helping me to connect and relate more to others?
  4. Is this practice supporting me to better function in my daily life?

It took me time to give myself permission to shift gears, but I’m grateful that I did for more reasons than I can lay out in this blog. There may be a time when you need that permission too and I want you to know you’re not alone. It’s okay to let go or try something else.

What about you?

If you’ve had a similar experience or realization with a contemplative practice, I invite you to share in the comments below.

Autumn Anxiety and HSPs: Why You Feel It and How to Cope

Autumn Anxiety and HSPs: Why You Feel It and How to Cope

The following article on autumn anxiety and HSPs was originally written for Highly Sensitive Refuge under the title “For Highly Sensitive People, Autumn Anxiety Is Real”.

Do you experience anxiety when fall sweeps in? If your mood and energy suddenly feel off balance at this time of year, you’re not alone.

As a highly sensitive person (HSP), I’ve known this feeling since childhood. It’s the anticipation that arrives when the vibrant glow of summer wanes and crisp air whispers that change is imminent.

Perhaps you dislike the inevitable shorter days and colder weather. Maybe you simply have an unsettled feeling that arises from associations, memories, and existential anxiety that can’t quite be expressed through words.

If you can relate, you know the very real feeling of autumn anxiety.

Why HSPs May Feel Autumn Anxiety

While autumn anxiety is not an official mental health diagnosis, anxiety in fall is common. Some clinicians suggest anxiety may be triggered by dwindling sunlight and heightened for those anticipating change, Seasonal Affective Disorder, or upcoming holiday anniversaries.

Although anyone can experience autumn anxiety — highly sensitive or not — it’s likely that HSPs are more susceptible to it. Therapist Gillian Scully, who coined the term, has said, “It seems that people who are already quite sensitive and aware of their surroundings have been experiencing these feelings.”

Highly sensitive people are keenly aware of environmental subtleties and feel nostalgic memories deeply. It’s understandable why your nervous system may feel destabilized during seasonal change.

There’s also another way to understand the seasonal change.

Autumn Anxiety from a Yogic and Ayurvedic Lens

As a yoga teacher, I find it important to consider some of the basic principles of Ayurveda, yoga’s “sister science” for understanding health, that I’ve learned from my teachers. Anyone can benefit from simply aligning more with the seasons and nature to restore and nourish well-bring, but I find this is especially true for my highly sensitive students.

Ayurveda conceptualizes that all living beings have specific constitutions or doshas (vata, kapha, pitta) that correspond to the elements (water, fire, earth, air, and ether). The unique makeup of these within each person defines their physical, emotional, and mental characteristics and lifestyle recommendations in order to bring the doshas into balance.

Likewise, the seasons of the year are also governed by doshas and autumn is known as “vata season.” This means that the vata constitution, which corresponds to the elements of air and ether is dominant at this time of year. Autumn is associated with qualities such as windy, dry, cool, unstable, and variable.

While this perspective says that vata is dominant for everyone in fall, you can imagine how you might be affected as a highly sensitive person with a system that is constantly processing, managing overload, and perhaps experiencing variable emotions.

To bring the doshas into balance, the other elements are to be harnessed. Thus, this is a time of year for grounding, gentle warming, and stabilizing.

Even if you don’t subscribe to these teachings, you can still see how a person’s mood and mindset can be strongly affected by the natural and social changes of the seasons, and how these principles can be helpful while navigating those changes.

9 Yogic and Ayurvedic Tips to Ease Autumn Anxiety

1. Align with the season.

If you tend to get sucked into longing for warmer days or dreading frigid temperatures, draw yourself into the present time of where you are now in this seasonal cycle. This is a time to reflect upon what you’ve sown and grown and harvest and savor the nourishment. It may be a time of releasing and letting go. By integrating your inner system with your outer environment, you’ll be more able to trust in the cycles of dissolution and renewal and less fixated on your likes and dislikes.

2. Make time for daily ritual.

If you consider that this is a season of change and variability, it’s obvious that some sense of routine can help to stabilize autumn anxiety for HSPs. Yet, while highly sensitive people may benefit from routine, if you’re like me, you may not dig it. That’s completely okay. One of the ways I appease this part of me that dislikes routine is to allow for variety and exploration within routine. For example, you might set aside a regular time for a yoga practice, but listen to the seasons of your body to determine what sort of breath and movement practice would be beneficial. One of my students takes morning walks and noted that she changes the route a little each time to maintain interest.

3. Create a sensitive sanctuary.

While not everyone has the privilege of expansive space or freedom from neighbor noise, you may still have a space in your home that you can dedicate as a sacred corner for your ritual practice. Maybe it is also the place where you go to be with your emotions. Keep it simple but feel free to be creative. Cozy blankets, noise cancelling headphones, candles, and special mementos can all help facilitate a feeling of enjoying the process of turning inward…where your home, body, and mind are places you want to be.

4. Sync with sunlight.

Aligning with the day and night cycles is just as important to your system as the cycles of the seasons. You may not be an early bird and I’m certainly not suggesting to go to sleep at 6 p.m. Yet, it’s important to sync with those morning daylight hours and your circadian rhythm as much as possible. Rather than setting an early alarm, you might start going to sleep a little bit earlier each night so you’re more naturally able to wake up early.

5. Restore with grounding yoga practices.

You know that yoga can support you in focusing and settling your senses. This is a good time for slow and steady yoga that integrates mildly warming practices that facilitate stability and grounding. You might focus on poses that center you in your feet and legs or restorative practices that allow you to feel your body nestling into the ground. This is also the season for turning inward with calming pranayama or meditation practice. Yoga nidra (yogic sleep) is also a wonderful way to relax and replenish.

6. Eat and cook with the season.

Consider the local foods in your region that you can integrate into your cooking and diet. Nature does a wonderful job of supplying the nutrients you need in a given time of year. Overall, this is the time to opt for warm, cooked, grounding, and seasonal foods (squash, hearty greens, sweet potatoes, apples, brussel sprouts, nuts, oils, mild spices, etc.) and really engage your senses mindfully in the process of cooking and preparing them. Here is one of my favorite fall recipes that aligns with Ayurvedic principles.

7. Stay connected.

Though autumn is a time of harvesting and turning in, this doesn’t equate to isolation. Autumn is a vital time to balance inward-oriented practices and activities with healthy community connection. You might consider seasonal activities with loved ones you can safely partake in during the pandemic: socially distanced outdoor activities like visiting an orchard or building a campfire. You may explore ways to connect with other HSPs like you.

8. Explore creativity and curiosity.

There was a time in my life when I despised winter, so I didn’t care for autumn since it leads to winter. It wasn’t until my mid-twenties that I made a commitment to spend time outdoors doing activities I love such as hiking, even in cold weather. Consider how you might awaken curiosity and explore the most mundane aspects of your surroundings, even when it’s gloomy. Perhaps there’s a new hobby to try out or an old childhood pastime to reignite.

9. Show yourself compassion.

There may be moments when not every part of you is fully available to practice and engage with the tips above, and that’s okay too. In those moments, whether life feels heavy or you feel like a frenetic mess, give yourself a break. Be loving and compassionate to those parts of yourself too, just as you would to a friend going through a tough time.

When anxiety comes with seasonal changes, it can be helpful to remember the simple truth that seasons do indeed cycle. Summer will come again, emotions will shift, and you’ll always get through it.

Over to you…

If you struggle from autumn anxiety, what helps you cope and enjoy the season more?

Highly Sensitive Activists: Your Sustainable Fuel for the Long Haul

Highly Sensitive Activists: Your Sustainable Fuel for the Long Haul

Highly sensitive activist? Is this a thing? Honestly, I’m not sure, but I invite you to come forth and make it one because your care, complexity, and courage are needed.

Whether you already see yourself as a highly sensitive activist or are reluctant to consider yourself as such, I believe you’ll find the tips in this article helpful in how you can bring yourself to the world.

Highly sensitive people can make strong, effective activists. You may feel the injustices of the world deeply and want to have an impact. Yet, you might get stuck feeling overwhelmed and distracted and hesitate to get active. Or maybe you have been involved in activism and experienced burnout or compassion fatigue.

Stepping forth and holding focus while preventing depletion requires a true balance of beneficial action and supportive rest. Balance gets talked about a lot, but I want to dig a little deeper into the nuance of what this really means, as I discuss some of these key ingredients for sustained activism.

Today I want to share some tips with you for how to manage your energy and perspective as a highly sensitive activist so that you can get involved, stay engaged, and prevent burnout.

First, I’d like to say more about why I’m writing this. 

I recently wrote a call to action to my email list to bring forth the strengths of sensitivity in support of Black Lives Matter.

I heard from people who want to do something but question whether they can make a difference. I also heard from folks that are struggling to cope with anxiety amidst the many societal changes and personal hardships and don’t feel they have the energy to put forth.

I get the frustration and despair. And I hear that many of you are working through healing of your own.

I also know many of you face constant anxiety related to your experience as a person of color in a world in which you have to teach your children how not to get killed by those who are supposed to protect.

White readers, please read that again. Added daily anxiety because of the color of your skin.

Yes, it IS our collective duty to examine ourselves and systems we live in while advocating for policies that promote real social justice.

We must engage in deeper work that heals collective trauma that many Black and Indigenous People of Color (BIPOC) face every moment of every day.

But does your voice and action make a difference? What if you feel like you’re at your capacity?

I’d like to share how I build reserves and manage my own sustainable fuel needed for the long haul of individual and collective healing as a highly sensitive activist.

6 Tips for the Highly Sensitive Activist

1)  Know your overarching purpose. Highly sensitive people thrive on purpose. Get in touch with your “why” behind your actions. Knowing what you’re committed to fighting for will help you regroup and refocus when things get tough.

When I consider my purpose, I draw wisdom from yoga teachings and social work values that have informed my life. You may have other wisdom to draw from, here are mine:

  • Yoga asks me to live in accordance with dharma, which includes taking wise, just, and beneficial action toward that which upholds collective good for all beings and the planet.
  • Social work perspective asks me to apply systems theory to understand how environments and individuals interact and take action at the point of this intersection.

Both ask me to listen to the experiences of others. And they ask me go beyond myself and the people closest to me and make it clear that it’s incumbent upon me to widen my circle of care from my individual reality to the greater good.

2) Take beneficial action without attachment to the outcome. This might be one of the most critical perspectives that helps me keep going when it feels like the world is falling apart.

The problems of the world can feel overbearing to a highly sensitive activist. There are moments when you’ll wonder if your efforts are pointless. In those moments, I remember Krishna’s words in the Bhagavad Gita (paraphrased from a yoga text about conflict in a setting of conflict):

You may not control your environment, other people, or even the results of your actions. Yet, you DO have control over your own actions. Do your duty for the sake of the action itself and not the fruit of those actions.

Of course, expectations or desired outcomes are normal and necessary. Without them, you may not act. The teaching here is that you are responsible for just action toward collective good, even if it doesn’t yield your intended outcome. (Also embedded here is that there is always more than meets the eye and the ripple effects of your actions, karma, are unknowable.)

Adopting and living this perspective can free up your busy HSP brain for other matters. So…write the letter. Create provocative art. Donate money. Canvas your neighborhood. Do the right thing regardless of the immediate results (of course, knowing that sometimes the course of action will need to be reevaluated).

3) Name and celebrate successes. Just because you don’t control the full results of your actions, doesn’t mean that the collective contributions and positive outcomes shouldn’t be recognized. Systemic change is a slow process made up of many smaller milestones.

Even though there’s urgency, pay attention to the little victories and celebrate them. Incremental successes can be the fuel that keeps you and your community going and builds broader support for the cause.

Consider the concept above of not knowing the full ripple effects of your actions. Likewise, the results of your actions will ripple out into the future beyond your lifetime.

Take a look at what the first 10 days of sustained protests accomplished for Black Lives Matter.

4) Consider engaged action as healing action. When you have a lot on your plate, you may feel like you don’t have much energy left to take action. You might feel like you need to focus on yourself right now.

Self-care is important. At the same time, engaged action is also an empowering vehicle for healing and managing the other challenges of life.

If you struggle with anxiety or are working through trauma, you know how impactful it is when you tap into your sense of personal agency. Personal agency brings the locus of control back to you.

Engaged action in your own life reminds you of your resilience and capacity. Engaged action in your community reconnects you to the depth of your humanity and immerses you fully in life. Both play essential roles in individual and collective healing journeys.

You don’t have to do all the things as a highly sensitive person. Consider your skills and how you can apply them to affect positive change. Determine your bandwidth and set a plan of action for yourself within those parameters. Start small and grow from there.

5) Rest and restore. Self-care is a term that gets thrown around so much these days as temporary pleasure that it makes many of us want to throw up a little (as one person said during a recent yoga and reflection group)… the same way that “yoga as an escape” bothers many of us teachers since it is so far from the purpose of yoga.

Self-care is not an excuse to avoid discomfort or what’s in front of you to do. It’s making supportive (non-shaming, non-prescriptive) choices. It’s using discernment to set boundaries and know when to say no. It’s carving out space for your grief and emotions.

Notice when you feel resistant to resting. This may be when you need it the most.

Restful practice is vital to replenishing your highly sensitive reserves and capacity so that you can continue to show up tomorrow for yourself, those around you, and your work.

6) Choose your battles wisely. This is something I constantly have to reign myself back in with. And it relates to when and how you use your voice.

If you’ve been following the discussions on anti-racism, you know that many activists are asking you to have that “hard conversation with your racist uncle” or “call out racist behavior” on social media.

This is incredibly important and we need to take that call to heart and live it. Yet, without nuance as to when and how to do this, you can easily find yourself on a fast road to depletion and massive frustration. This doesn’t mean you don’t do the tough thing, it just means to apply consider when and how you direct your energy. Here are some questions to keep in mind:

  • Have you had the same circular conversation with your relative at every family gathering? If so, consider preserving your energy. Maybe you express your view and set boundaries, but if you’ve been down that road, don’t take the bait.
  • Are you in a work meeting in which your Black colleague is being asked to do the emotional labor of speaking for all Black people? This might be a time to say something. Yet, the when and how require tremendous discernment based on the context, power dynamics, and manner in which you say something. Here are some considerations for allyship worth reading.
  • Is your high school buddy who is a generally kind person sharing memes with racist undertones? Consider “calling him in” with a private message rather than shaming him on his Facebook page. He may be more likely to listen (and even remove the post).

Highly sensitive activist, you’re going to get tired and you’re going to make mistakes. Yet, your passion, voice, and engaged action are needed for collective healing.

Yoga for Highly Sensitive People: A Practice in Self-Love

Yoga for Highly Sensitive People: A Practice in Self-Love

It’s no secret that yoga can support highly sensitive people. A slow-paced, nurturing yoga practice can be just the medicine to calm an anxious nervous system and learn to befriend the most uncomfortable thoughts and feelings highly sensitive people often encounter. Today I want to share with you a yoga practice I put together to help you access qualities of calmness and compassion within yourself. 

But before you watch my yoga for highly sensitive people video, I want to offer a few tips to help ensure your yoga experience is supportive.

  • First, start by giving yourself permission to adapt and/or skip postures in this video if they don’t feel right. You can simply breathe, take another posture, or give yourself a little shoulder massage. Then join back in when you’re ready.
  • Remember that yoga above all is a practice of breathing and connecting to the self. The postures are there to bring you into the moment, and thereby, a place of connection.
  • This practice uses a yoga mat, two blocks, and a bolster. If you don’t have blocks, you may have books or other items around your house that you can use. If you do not have a bolster, sometimes cushions or a thick, folded blanket will work as a substitute.
  • Many parts of this practice can be done lying on the floor or in a bed. Other parts can be done using a chair. You can also check out this full chair yoga video I made a while back if getting up and down is difficult for you.
  • Finally, feel free to comment below to let me know what you liked about the video, what you could use more of, or any parts that felt confusing to you. 

Enjoy yoga for highly sensitive people in my “Unsinkable Self-Love for HSPs” video. 

Nadi Shodhana: A Breathing Technique to Help Calm Anxiety

Nadi Shodhana: A Breathing Technique to Help Calm Anxiety

Want to learn a breathing technique for anxiety?

Breathing techniques may not always work to ease anxiety, but that doesn’t mean that breathing never works. Different tools work in different ways for different people. What’s important is that you have options in your toolbox and identify what works for you.

Today I want to share with you a simple technique that is safe for beginners and a wonderful tool to facilitate ground in the fall season.

Nāḍī shodhana prāṇāyāma or “alternate nostril breathing” is a breathing technique I often teach my students.

On the days that I’m not a congested puffball, this practice brings me into a profound sense of ease and awareness. It can really be a powerful tool for a lot of people.

I’ll walk you through this as a breathing technique for anxiety you can do at home, as well as when you’re out in the world,.

First, I’d like to explain nāḍī shodhana and its benefits a little further.

Nāḍī Shodhana: A Breathing Technique for Anxiety

The word nāḍī can be translated from Sanskrit to mean “channel” and shodhana signifies “cleansing” or “purifying”. Nāḍī shodhana is the practice of cleansing or clearing the subtle pathways of your system so that your prāṇa or “life force” can move through you with greater ease. In essence, the practice helps restore balance in your mind and body and supports overall well-being.

This simple technique can be practiced before or after physical postures (āsana). If you choose to do it at the end, practice it after śavāsana. You may also use this breathing technique as a stand-alone practice.

Benefits of Nāḍī Shodhana

Here are some of the potential benefits of nāḍī shodhana according to the yogic tradition:

  • Centers the mind in the present.
  • Supports mental function and concentration.
  • Lowers the heart rate and releases tension.
  • Improves respiratory function and sends more oxygen to the blood.
  • Helps balance the left and right nostrils and hemispheres of the brain.